Finally a writer!

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I have been struggling with actually writing lately and it is what I love to do with my time.  I have been stuggling to find the word and consistently share them with you in my blogging.  Not writers block, something deeper than that.  I have been struggling with a deep fear of success.

I have known that I had this fear for quite some time.  Now it is so akin to me that I have identified with it.  It has become my mantra and drive.  So, I try to do different things over and over swearing that they just didn’t work out, when in the reality of it all, it was me.  I sabotaged my own success by any means necessary.

So, now I am facing that fear.  I am putting it all to the side.  I have posted finally to my Gerlaine.com.  I am going to build it and do what I know that I am suppose to do with it.  I am going to pick up my other writing projects and get those going.  It is time for me to take my rightful place as a writer.

I hope to empower millions with it.

Wanting to make a difference means nothing.  Making a difference means everything.  ~Gerlaine

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I Feel Good!

I am majorly into the Law of Attraction.  You will learn more about my affinity to it as you share my life with me in this blog.  I have been attracting a lot of confusion and misery to myself in this past year.  It is crazy for me, because I know better.  Well, I say that to say this.  I have been with my boyfriend for about a year and a half now.  We were such great friends many years before, but now we reside in sort of a love hate relationship.

I must tell the truth about myself.  I have not had many boyfriends and I much prefer being single to having a boyfriend or lover.  I know weird, right?  But true.  I like dating.  If someone that I date gets on my nerves.  I can simply stop dating them.  Oh, and I’m not in denial.  It’s simply a full fledged fear of commitment on my part.  I make my boyfriend out to be such an Ogre.  Because of this fear, I see things in a way that makes him even more so an Ogre in my eyes.

After I have let him go, then I am singing the Beyonce song Halo and wanting him back.  This song reminds me of the times when I see all of the good in him and want to be with him forever.  I want to feel like this everyday.  Curse that dang fear of commitment!

So, I am going to eradicate that fear and attract more love between us. As I sit here and think about it, I have been more mean in this relationship than he has.  Usually, if he is upset, it is not even with me.  He is upset with someone else.  Then I get upset, because I don’t think he should be upset.  Wow, sounds silly now that it is on the computer screen.  Maybe he does actually wear a halo, dealing with that bull.

Pray for me yall.  Admiting it is the first step.

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Still Contemplating My Life

It’s late night again.  Not quite 2 am, but I am still trying to figure it out.  Okay, so the day was not a total bust.  I caught up on my tweets and I learned a lot of great information from many different gurus.  I haven’t yet figured out what niche to go with on my Gerlaine.com.  Though I did get a nice WP theme on there.

Really, I’m trying to figure out early in my school career what I am going to practice when I get out of school.  If I have not told you, I am in school for Psychology.  My service  is what Gerlaine.com is going to be all about.  The question is who is my audience and what is my focus?  I guess it will take more than one night to figure that burning question out.  Until then, Gerlaine.com will remain a shell.

So, I am pretty satisfied with the day!  I am going to contemplate my life once again, tonight.  I’ll figure out what my business I want to forge into.  I will get focused.  I am sort of working on Gerlaine.com as I update my GerlaineTalk.com.

Some of you may be thinking, “Why two sites?”  Well, welcome to my home here at GerlaineTalk.  Now, allow me to provide directions for you to my main office at Gerlaine.com.

I am going to watch the video again tonight from my last blog.  Just look over to your right (or click here)—>.

I hope that it inspires the genius to come to me and I can get everything going.

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Life is full of characters.  Which one are you?  ~Gerlaine

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