Finally a writer!

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I have been struggling with actually writing lately and it is what I love to do with my time.  I have been stuggling to find the word and consistently share them with you in my blogging.  Not writers block, something deeper than that.  I have been struggling with a deep fear of success.

I have known that I had this fear for quite some time.  Now it is so akin to me that I have identified with it.  It has become my mantra and drive.  So, I try to do different things over and over swearing that they just didn’t work out, when in the reality of it all, it was me.  I sabotaged my own success by any means necessary.

So, now I am facing that fear.  I am putting it all to the side.  I have posted finally to my Gerlaine.com.  I am going to build it and do what I know that I am suppose to do with it.  I am going to pick up my other writing projects and get those going.  It is time for me to take my rightful place as a writer.

I hope to empower millions with it.

Wanting to make a difference means nothing.  Making a difference means everything.  ~Gerlaine

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Still Contemplating My Life

It’s late night again.  Not quite 2 am, but I am still trying to figure it out.  Okay, so the day was not a total bust.  I caught up on my tweets and I learned a lot of great information from many different gurus.  I haven’t yet figured out what niche to go with on my Gerlaine.com.  Though I did get a nice WP theme on there.

Really, I’m trying to figure out early in my school career what I am going to practice when I get out of school.  If I have not told you, I am in school for Psychology.  My service  is what Gerlaine.com is going to be all about.  The question is who is my audience and what is my focus?  I guess it will take more than one night to figure that burning question out.  Until then, Gerlaine.com will remain a shell.

So, I am pretty satisfied with the day!  I am going to contemplate my life once again, tonight.  I’ll figure out what my business I want to forge into.  I will get focused.  I am sort of working on Gerlaine.com as I update my GerlaineTalk.com.

Some of you may be thinking, “Why two sites?”  Well, welcome to my home here at GerlaineTalk.  Now, allow me to provide directions for you to my main office at Gerlaine.com.

I am going to watch the video again tonight from my last blog.  Just look over to your right (or click here)—>.

I hope that it inspires the genius to come to me and I can get everything going.

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Life is full of characters.  Which one are you?  ~Gerlaine

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The Way I Feel Right Now

It is 1:30 am.  I am awake or something like that.  I am up thinking about my future and what I want to do with my life.  I am rethinking it as I have done so many times before.  I want to come to some kind of focus.  Dedicate my life to one thing.  I want to have a purpose.

I have never focused on any one thing in my whole life.  I have always been all over the page, so to speak.  This practice has caused me much dispair.  I have gone from a smart young school girl to an average adult.  I feel that I was never supposed to be average.  I am meant for so much more.  Then why am I not living my life on a ‘higher’ level?

“I just need to decide on one thing that drives me and drive that thing until it need a new set of wheels and then go get a new set of wheels and drive that thing some more.”

That was my attempt at not sounding cliche. 

I think that just made me feel better.  Decide on one thing instead of just finding something.  Finding something makes it feel like a needle in a haystack when there are 123 haystacks laying around.  You know what I mean?

Deciding feels powerful.  I feel like I am in control.  Ok, I am going to post this blog for the day and that is what I am going to work on for tomorrow.

“I will make a firm decision on what I am going to do with my life and write out a rough draft plan.”

I will let you know how it goes. Love ya!

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